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Sunday, May 07, 2006

Clockwork of Life

Emily Dickinson’s poem "A Clock Stopped” talks about life. It talks about how all "clocks” go round and round, every single day, repeating the same patterns, but they all have an end (lifetime of the clock).

A friend of mine called today, and said she was bored with her life. The same thing happens all the time, doing the same things on weekends. She has fun, but nothing exciting happens anymore. Being the jerk that I am, I just told her that she was just spoiled. I told her that she has a good life, and she's living comfortably.

But underneath, I completely understand how she feels. I seem to have a "good life” as well. But I’m never satisfied, and rarely happy. It could be this generation of people, or maybe it’s because we haven’t fully "grown up” yet. When did we stop being content with comfortable, which drove us to seek excitement? My life is clockwork. I do the same things day after day, go to work, come home, spend an hour or two doing something I enjoy, which is usually hitting the arcade or playing basketball, then have dinner, watch TV/play video games, and go to bed, so I can wake up the next day and do it all over again. I’ve tried to do something "different” once in a while. I went to the National Zoo last weekend, and it was fairly disappointing, not nearly as cool as it was the last time I went, which was 3 years ago.

Not do we seek new excitements in life, are we less amused as we grow older? And when will we finally be genuinely satisfied and truly happy with our lives?


Blogger sharlet said...

Cf Maslow's hierarchy of needs... I suppose it largely depends on what kinds of perspectives we take towards life too.

When I was younger I could be considered a hedonist; my sole goal in life was to maximise my own personal utility. Now, I feel a need to fill in a spiritual gap in my life, through not necessarily embracing religion, but perhaps some ideals or principles I can identify with.

As for material pursuits, they have become secondary.

5/08/2006 4:40 PM  
Blogger Paul Zhao said...

Ideals and principles, I've always found people having them when it's "convenient". When they're not sacrificing too much, everyone "sticks with their principles". But when it's a choice of sticking with principles or getting something they truly want, most people take choice #2. Whether it's a big sum of money, a worthy promotion at work, or a girl/guy a person would do anything for.......principles tend to be lesser of priority. The only variable is how much a person desires something that breaks his/her principles, and by how much he/she bends or breaks it.

But then again, most of us don't often get an opportunity of breaking our principles for something big, so we got nothing to worry about. Until then, enjoy life on the high road and find true happiness. :)

5/08/2006 9:44 PM  
Blogger sharlet said...

Hmm. That was insightful. Well-said. You made me think of this guy I know who likes to make himself seem better than other people by putting himself on moral high ground, always acting self-righteous. Come to think of it now, he's never really been in situations where he would be "tested" to see if he would truly stick by all those principles he claims to have. And I don't think he would too. Haha.

5/13/2006 2:34 PM  
Blogger Paul Zhao said...

Yeah, it's pretty easy to say "This is my belief and I'm not going to bend my beliefs for anything or anybody" until something you truly want is on the line. :)

5/14/2006 4:43 PM  

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